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Welcome to Dead to Divine.

To most people, the phrase “From the Grateful Dead to the Grateful D.O.G.S.” might sound like a playful twist on a name embedded in our music history. But for me, it became something deeper, more like a signal than a slogan. It served as a reminder that the thread running through my life has never been solely about one era, one band, or one scene. It has always encompassed Spirit and Dogs. Now that I own a holistic pet care business and live with five dogs, animals play a significant role in my journey. Yet, this is bigger than just that. It points back to something older, a whisper that has been with me since before I stepped inside the Fillmore or visited Olompali. In my world, the Grateful D.O.G.S. represent more than just dogs; the letters DOGS stand for the Divine Omnipresent Galactics or Guardians—those ancient gods we all recognize. They form the soul family that operates behind the scenes, akin to an innerworld sports team, composed of male, female, and androgynous beings. They are our home team, and I feel blessed to have their support. For me, they manifest as helpers, messengers, and familiar energies that show up in various ways, from a sudden feeling of companionship to dreams that resonate like memories, or flashes of light during meditation that leave me pondering how long they’ve been trying to reach me. Sometimes, they communicate through the animals in my life, particularly my dogs, whose eyes reveal truths older than anything I’ve learned from people. They also come through the music at Dead shows, when the sound opens a door within me so wide it feels like stepping into another realm. These guides have been with me long before my memories began.

Growing up immersed in the world of the Grateful Dead, surrounded by their music, crew, family, friends, and the countercultural freedom of the Olompali days, I absorbed more than rhythm and sound. I learned that life could be beautiful, heartbreaking, and unpredictable, where connection and mystery coexist, and every turn might carry lessons I wasn’t yet ready to grasp. What began as a life shaped by music and wandering ultimately led me toward healing, intuition, and a sense of purpose—first for myself and then for those I cherish most.

This book is about that transformation. It explores the strange and sacred paths we walk when we heed what calls us home. It delves into spirit and resilience, the journey of falling apart and rising again. Dead to Divine is the story of my evolution from the wild rhythms of the road, the world of sex, drugs, and rock 'n' roll, to the gentle, sacred work of caring for animals, for hearts, and for the soul.